its me

randomly to surprise sum old fren passers by ard here...i don rmb what happened in btw d lazt post up till now...all i noe is..too many tonnes of picx have lost..too many stuff i dunno where i chucked it..

my life is quite a mess..i seriously cant grab a reason going to work besides for the pay n money..

i don earn frenship der..i earn little knowledge der..haha..n obviously i don earn any private time der...but i do earn cash from my job..n hopefully i don earn scolding from bosses in near future =S

so work life balance is a bullshit for me now..

i grab my buddy huiling go yoga wif me...to reduce the non-exercise life...

randomly go badminton when sista is bac in town..

this working life is fattening craze...no chance u can skip lunch coz all colleagues will start looking at u one kind...and its freaking pricey to go makan wif all these seniors.. :p

well..not to worry..i don torture myself to tat extend from work...

i did had a fabulous birthday...wif who? i don really rmb besides my family..n my uni mates i guess..LOL..pardon for the short memories i'm having now...

I did enjoyed my convocation (oops..i din even realise i didnt post it XD )

I enjoyed every bits of second wif my coursemates@xiao zha bo gang during the half day photo taking session...

I still rmbered to giv sum surprise to my dearest 38 po Loke for her birthday!!

what did i do for suang den??? did i do anything??? chamness ^^ yea i think i did...we had a funnily punya dinner wif her...

har~~ tat reminds me of her forgetting to pass me all the stunningly beautiful picx we took tat nite ^.*

and i did had a GREAT TIME during viv Birthday bash at her mont kiara home..its a good catch up wif ur old frens when u have sleep over =))

wassup after tat?!?! i have no idea...

i'm trying hard to catch up wif my peaky life at work now..i wish i'm a more efficient person to settle all these rubbish loads of work of my TABLE ASAP!!! d boss will start churning on me tmr @.@

pssst...my lappie condemn mths ago...

i got no song no picx here...so...no wonderful picx to tagged on here..^^

but for sure..I"M FAT NOW~~~

life is wonderful

of quite a piece of shit..haha...everyones life is full of choices..its on

HOW u made ur choice..

HOW u wan it to b..

HOW u wan to walk it through n

HOW u wan live it through..

like for example..u can choose to study locally or study overseas..which ended up like

ME studying locally free n easy but finding jobs like a cheap labour..

OR mayb like my sis or sum buddy studying overseas now like a COW..no day no nite..unable to und a piny word of their courses..but mayb der is a BUCKET full of jobs awaiting at d end of ur journey..IIF(if n only if) u manage to trespass all the difficulties in ur cow life studies..

haha..so I TOLD U SO..its a point of making choices..d most important part is not regretting..

BUT who nvr regrets...I'm living up to onli like..20+ but my regrets is accumulating NOW..haha..it had gone to the numbering of 2 ady lately...i'm not yet old..n regrets ady following..=.=''' n yet..i'm still learning to hypnotize myself to forget bout d regrets of my life to keep myself positive thinking..so how does tat even sound..LOL..not pathetic..but a good actor to act according HOW i had gone through till tis day of my life....

so LIVE LIFE how it works out till now..:)

WISDOM book says bout life:

~ Some are enslaved by their past

~Others are so future oriented that they are useless to the present..

SO..arent we ourself who decide on HOW your life shud be..

so..AREN't we out own enemies? ^.*

who am I

am i living for myself or living for the sake of others expectation??
am i making choices according to my liking or others?
am i acting according how i wish to or how d norm shud be?
am i going out like i really wanted or jz plainly do not wanna disappoint others?
not emo-ing..jz wondering..coz feels myself is working up myself more to others expectation more than wat i really wanna act..i'm starting to act like how others expected me to do so..i'm thinking too much for others..thinking too much on family and frens..troubling myself over matters tat i can jz ignore..

well..another one is you...
hey man..u make me sudd think m i a good fren??or there is always other ways for me to reminisce you jz a lil diff like d others did..i do think of you sometimes when it hits d memory where we cross path..i do think of you coz you are once so close to me..i do think of you coz you are part of the string tat pulled me n him 2gtr..i do rmb your cynical smile after doing bad stuff..i do rmb you whenever i look through picx..i rmb d nights we spent for studies..
BUT..
i start to feel d diff way missing you jz like the others..i start to lose commitment like how dey did..but deep dwn..i noe you are still der..you are a buddy tat hit hard on my friendship list..not coz of wat u jz did but for wat u had did all along for how long i knew you..jz wanna say d diff way of it start making me isolating myself from who i shud b wif..

oh great

hey sis..
i miss you :S nobody gonna teman me go jogging..nobody gonna help me do hsework..nobody gonna help me tahan when mom scolds..haha..well..hope to see you soon lor..take a ride on sumbody's car n jz come bac la..stay also no point d... XD erm..or y not u move ur stuffs earlier then wait till convo onli go bac wif us?? haiz..watever it is..will bac to sien life after tis..STUpid OCBC...

choices

Life..is about making choices..
choice on who are your frens..
choice on wat are you gonna eat for d day..
choice on whether to have fun or have work..
choice on whether who is gonna b love of your life
choice on whether you wanna start your day in happy mood or the other way..
choice on whether to forgive or forget..
choice on which place to travel..
choice on frens,work,family or lover
choice on wat type of gift you wish to give the ones you appreciate..
choice on wat kind of celebration you wish to have
choice on movies
choice on etc...the list may really goes on till stretch long..
well..its not me being emo now..
juz...plainly afraid of making choices and decision :S
too many choices to be made lately...brain stuck...
course..
presents..
celebration..
all coming in a row..continuously.. @.@
well watever it is...life is made to be so frustrating sometimes..so enjoy it d way you wish..

I juz fin watching Sex and the city yest..
the thing i love bout d show is not about SEX or LOVE..hehe funny enuf..its their FRIENDSHIP..
a simple 4 frens..stayed hold on their friendship for YEARS..till 50 years old..
its wonderful...to have your frens from secondary or primary to celebrate your birthday juz d way you had it 20 or 30 years ago =)

this makes me think of my evil devils from KB..Remember our mural 10 years promise ^^
haha dunno by den it still exists anot..KB look so diff ady now.. XD