trust??

damn you
hate you
$%&!#@$ you...
他妈的鸡蛋糕王八蛋

心痛..失眠...很不好受....

insomia...wat a so damn new term for me..
happen out of sudden..
lying awake...
forcing myself not to think..lets just sleep..but the thinking juz keep coming in...
wanted to find out a stupid damn solution but juz end up all crumpled up...
so instead of sleeping d mind is running too wildly and hardly to keep it calm..

when i realise..its already 2am..den its 4am..n its even 6am but my mind is still freaking awake...wth...
finally get to force my mind shut off at 6am..but i noe this rest wont b enuf coz i had promised to go jogging at 7am...

Jogging is so good for health...it makes ur heart pumps so fast n hard...n guess wat everyone..d pain u get on ur heart while jogging..is so much better feeling den d pain ppl gave it to u...
it feels so good to overtake d pain tat ache me whole nite...
it feels so good to forget all for tat 30 mins...


after jogging...damn shit memory keep coming bac...
so end up on9..as usual..onli huiling d early bird is on d line..^^
chatting wif HL..thank god..it does heal..sumhow..sumwhere...
thanks gal..getting cheated really does hurt...
trust is also another factor i have been thinking...
how much can i give anymore..
it does ache alot...
y cant i cry ??
d pain is der..but the tears juz dont feels like coming..so..it end up hanging...
hmm..shud go watch 1 litre of tears n get the stupid damn tears out to heal everything :P

but anyway...
juz one last question...
"do u ever think of how i feel when u did that??"