piece of art^^

--- 2009年2月12日 星期四，

一種簡簡單單的被愛感覺

儘可能多關懷我們身旁的人---無論是父母、夫妻、子女、朋友、同事,
一個笑容,一聲問候,都可能改變一個悲劇的產生

他是一位退休教授，跟老妻過著優游的生活，早上一起爬上小山崗舒展筋骨，下午他料理陽台的花草，
又或看看雜誌，妻子則和朋友到咖啡室聊天。他們唯一的女兒，在美國定居。

月前一個晚上，朦朧間他感到床墊濕了，是老妻尿床。
他推推她，發覺她已沒有反應。(註: 他發現妻子去逝了)
「節哀順變。」不少親戚朋友說。「謝謝關心，我會的。」
他極有禮貌地回答，沒失方寸，一派學者風範。
暗地裡，他部署一切。
花草贈給鄰居，向人借的書籍郵寄送還，然後，走上律師樓立遺囑。
全部準備好了。
在月圓的晚上，銀光薄薄的灑滿一室，他亮起微黃的檯燈，寫下最後的說話。
面前，是一瓶藥丸。瓶子上，他看見老妻微笑。(註: 他想念妻子,不願獨活,打算自殺)
就在他打開瓶蓋的時刻，電話響起。
他拿起電話筒，一把熟悉的聲音傳來：「爸爸，我在機場，我好想陪陪你。」他猛然醒覺。


老教授向我說完他的故事，喝一口香片，緩緩道：
「最有效防止自殺的東西，不是學術修養，不是心理醫生，不是豐厚財富，原來是一種簡簡單單的被愛感覺。」

wow..freedom

freedom..did it link to boredom^^ anyway will noe it myself by the end of my holz...
wat m i gonna do after exam???
planning........still...

kinda sulky over my stats 2day..coz got it wrong at STANDARD DEVIATION...totally cant believe myself..wrong at such a thing...
everyone seems to lost their mood to go out...
plus...darling was like so bad mood over his exam...
but dunno wat happen..all of us was like--LETS GO EAT..
excited betul :P
plan to go YUEN..>> but does it open tat early at 2pm??
next JOGOYA>.< damn expensive leh..
SHOGUN den...>>but..hehe..buffet lunch from 12-3pm lar..
we reach der 3pm sharp...so..
end up CARLS JUNIOR..for its super duper biggy burger...^^



oh yea..speaking of eating..
i wanna go STARBUCKS for their breakfast set leh..
shud go for it tmr morn..XD
now planning on tmr morn KBOX plan^^
red box gardens really more expensive leh..haiz..but its way much nearer...
how?? how??
n i'm still wondering shud bring luggage along anot..^^ coz lazy go bac uni take..so far leh..hmm..lets pack up to decide^^
anyway everyone out der..

I'M FREE!!!!! :P

surprises^.^

wat a surprise to myself when i was exploring Multiply d social network page tat i had abandoned it long enuf till i dont really rmb wats inside...
n giving me surprises tat inside der is post b4 i enter matrics...a funny small little post on how i score in my mid sem in TARC...lol
life is juz so fast changing...
those days seems so near yet past so long ago d..

http://carrie28.multiply.com/journal

thinking bac of the past...its a post more than 2 yrs ago..OMG>.<
yet i'm still keeping in touch wif those buddies in TARC:
lian hua(most matured one), zhen kang(my lou dao leh), sheng loong(godbro), aili(my leng lui "mum"), cliff(the rich guy), Jul Chan(crapper on earth^^), Jul wong(Mr.gentleman on earth)and also Sharon(youngest in Tarc AJ8a)

haha..thinking bac bout them really making me remembering those days where i really DONT STUDY...really SPEND DAYS without knowing the meaning of study..lol..
haha..everyday wat i do in class during lecturer is EAT NIPS wif aili..(p/s: tat is y my weight can shot up so fast during those days in coll^^)
still rmb the economy rice in Tmn Megah i think..hehe..d mamak stall at the back door of TARC..nasi pattaya...
those days walking to lrt station wif sharon n jul wong..
those days hunting leng luis wif "lou dao"
those days gossip bout those "bithches" in class who doesn't like my leng lui "mum"
those days spending precious breaks in d com lab...
those days where i spend my lunch wif Py n her Bio frens at bangsar..hehe..eating Korean food..
those days helping out in TARC orientation..making fun of new students..
those days of waking up freaking early at 6.45am to sit Mr Yap's , Jesh's car..
those days where i practice my driving skills to py's place..
those days where i got d most freedom in my studies life..
those days where i dont even need to care much on my results..(surprise har..^^) coz by passing my exams i will get to continue my scholarship :P
those days where i dont have to do any Homework...

those days..is part of memories in my life which i treasure it as well..coz its d craziest school life i ever had besides matriculations...

wateva it is...hope to keep in touch wif them all coz the friendship bonded der..
is the beginning of my adulthood friendhip where i get to learn the good and bad of life..where i understand life is not as perfect as we all own since young..
they are the ones who taught me to appreciate with wateva i actually have wif me..

hmm..
lian hua dunno where is she..coz lost contact since laz yr end..when she last decided to study again..
aili is in s'pore taking up her FAV pastry course..
cliff..working i think..:P
zhen kang is studying in Utar(hehe..n sumtimes we really need to believe in FATE coz...his gf is studying the same course as me..n we are actually studying the same course every sem..)
brother sheng loong is nearby at Help studying Com n biz course i think :P
Sharon stil in TArc...


wherever u guys are...
love you guys lots...^^

所謂的曾經，就是幸福

所謂的曾經，就是幸福


中午，我站在學校大門口當交通導護，幫助一年級的小朋友放學。

卓新勇的母親，悄手悄腳提著一個便當在校門口。 被我一喊，她露出不好意思的表情。

「老師啊！．．．」

「哎呀！我不是跟妳講了嗎？學校不喜歡家長替孩子送便當。

如果每個媽媽都像妳這樣，學校大門就擠滿了人，那樣，我們怎麼放學呢？」

「我知道！我知道！」哼！知道了還送，簡直是明知故犯。

「妳不會讓他自己帶便當嗎！」

「我知道！我知道！」這些話，不曉得說了幾次。

每次一到中午，送便當的家長和放學的一年級小朋友，常常相撞在一起，造成相當的困擾。

卓新勇是一位沈默寡言，乖巧內向的孩子。

有次上課，他竟然打瞌睡，我很訝異，把他叫起來。

「怎麼了？」他一臉迷惘站起來，不回答。

第二天上課，也是這樣，我實在受不了，狠狠地把他叫過來。

「你到底怎麼了？」

我已經氣得半死，口氣已經控制不住。

突然，他垂頭淌下淚水。我暗自一驚。

「說呀！到底為什麼上課要打瞌睡呢？」

我媽媽住院了！昨天一直在醫院陪她。」

我一聽愣住了，頓時，心中的怒氣消失了，代之而起的是無限慚愧，「她為什麼住院呢？」

「是肺癌！」我一聽，心都涼到腳底。

心中想到身體贏弱的卓新勇。

如果，不幸那天來臨，他將如何繼續往後漫長的歲月呢？

想到這兒，不禁鼻酸。吃飯時，妻子在餵兒子吃飯，

我不禁想起，以前卓新勇的母親偷偷摸摸替他送便當。

第二天下班後，我騎著機車到醫院探望他母親。

幾個禮拜沒見，卓新勇的母親瘦得不成人形，蒼白的臉，光禿的頭，簡直不敢相信就是她。

她看到我，顯得很驚訝，努力想站起來，但是，一咳嗽，整個人歪了一邊。

「不要站起來！不要站起來！」

「老師！謝﹍﹍謝謝你！」她吃力喊著，眼眶消出淚水。

在醫院的走廊，卓新勇的父親對我說：「只剩下兩個月了！嗚！我﹍真的不知要怎麼辦？」他老淚縱橫。

回到學校，報告校長。

「他爸爸已經六十多歲了，現在母親又將離開人間，是不是我們可以發動全校募款。不管多少，都可以幫助他。」校長爽快答應。

經過幾天募款活動，我們總算募到五萬二千一百二十元。

把錢送到醫院時，卓新勇的母親已經在昏迷中。

「我們準備今天送他回家！」卓新勇的父親，臉形憔悴得發白。我一聽，心頭抽搐一陣。

「老師！能不能幫個忙？」

「請說！我能夠做到的，我一定答應。」

「他前幾天，一直拉著卓新勇的手，喊著：媽媽不能再替你送便當了！我想，請老師再讓她送最後一次便當，只有送便當時，他才真正感受到一位為人母親的榮耀。」 聽到這兒，我百感交集地點點頭。

中午，一輛救護車呼拉拉開到學校大門口。

卓親勇的父親和一名醫護人員，推著擔架上的人。

我淚水盈眶，站在旁邊，伴當交通導護老師。

「到了！到了！」卓新勇的父親買了一個便當，躺在擔架上的卓新勇的母親，伸出瘦細蒼白的手提著便當，在旁邊人員推送下，慢慢靠近大門口的鐵門。

在鐵門的另一邊，卓新勇伸出右手，接過母親的便當。

「媽！」卓新勇嚎啕大哭。

這時，我清楚見到她母親瘦削的臉頰，抽搐了一下，彷彿想說話，但是，又說不出來。

「媽！我不要！我不要妳走！」卓新勇呼天搶地叫著。

我的淚水，再也控制不住，嘩嘩而落。我暗恨自己，以前是多麼殘忍！

隔天，卓新勇的母親就去世了。

卓新勇的母親出殯後。

一天， 卓新勇的父親來到我辦公室，遞給我一包牛皮紙。

老師！這是你和學生們幫助我的錢，我認為還有更多的學生，需要這筆錢，所以，還給你們。謝謝你熱心幫忙。」說完，錢一放，就掉頭離去。

這筆錢彷彿生熱似的，直燙著我心坎。

我天天找卓新勇聊天話家常。深怕他經不起喪母的打擊。

「老師！你放心！我很好！你不要一直替我擔心！」

卓新勇對我說「我很早就知道，我母親就要死了，我也不是不想聽你話，叫媽媽不要送便當。因為，一天當中，只有中午，我才能吃到我媽媽煮的飯。」

我心頭一凜，「為什麼呢？」

她很虛弱，家裡都是爸爸在煮飯。只有中午爸爸不在，她才能偷偷背著爸爸煮飯。是她堅持要送便當的。」說完，卓新勇淌出淚水。

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各位∼趁著父母健在的時候，好好的孝順他們喔！

不然........將來後悔也就來不及了！
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一直以為幸福在遠方，在可以追逐的未來。

我的雙眼保持著眺望，我的雙耳仔細聆聽，唯恐疏忽錯過。

後來才發現---那些握過的手，唱過的歌，愛過的人......

所謂的曾經，就是幸福

an article from my email..
wat you had and own before is the happiness you had owned
meaningful and important for all of us to know..
appreciate everything we own n have now..
appreciate and show our love in time..

especially after reading pei sang's blog..
i am wondering wat my parents are thinking when i'm home??
i am wondering when is the last time i really chat wif my parents?
coz even i'm home i'm bz doing my own stuff..didn't really talk much bout stuff to them..i'm juz "bz" studying..
those who are far away from home busy exam-ing..surely long time dont have the time to call bac home..but..
actually parents are the one who can actually calm u down when you are emo or worries..
still..
home is the best place of all..
gives you the calm n serenity..

dean list??

study till so stress up for no reason...stupid useless crap dean list...
get dean list...juz for d freaking future...
wats for..
LIVE LIFE HAPPY leh..where goes my motto of life..:S
law is seriously driving us all crazy...thank god i didn't chose law at d 1st place...
concentration is getting low..
tats y lepak-ing around on d net..
doing quizzes in FB tats funny enuf..
talking on d phone wif him...wondering y der r ppl so stubborn still don wanna see a doc...ish..
anyway...need to continue my LAW final chap..
its officially 1 hour on d net d..
ciaoz...

campbell mushroom soup....

hehe..sumbody will surely say..yer...mushroom..wateva..
mushroom is TASTY...

i'm having campbell's mushroom soup + avocadro+ gardenier bread for dinner...
while talking on d phone for while..
while on9-ing..
while reading ppl's blog..
while typing my own blog..
while chatting at the same time..
while "depressing" over the etnik studies tat surely won't get A (hehe..unless i got full marks for asgmt which is totally impossible..):P
while finding d song i wanted badly but dunno wats the song title..

lol..
lastly...while thinking when onli i will start my public admin studies..haha..

cleaning up

supposedly studying...
hehe...but end up cleaning up my room...n even wash the fan coz the weather is freaking hot lately n d fan is very(x10) dirty :P
i can't even rmb when i last washed it..lol..
wateva...now my room is cooling n clean :P
den i even clear up my cupboard..coz its almost the end of the sem d..omg...time really flies...yea..time really flies..coz since i woke up in the morn till now..
in a flash its 10 adi..:P n i havent do anything useful yet besides ate my breakfast n cleaning up my room..lol..

ciaoz bloggy..need to cont my etnik..d world granny stories book...:P

很有意思的十句话

negleted macro aside..
typing tis..
which is edited from loke's pg..lol
actually we got tis long long ago from matrics time lar..
still rmb during d time where everyone got 500 msges free from hotlink
send till siao to everyone...
tis msg if not mistaken took up 5pages..
n we sent it to almost everyone we know..lol

第一句

　　如果我们之间有1000步的距离
　　
　　你只要跨出第1步
　　
　　我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步

(但愿我能找到那个我愿意为他走其余999步的那个“他”,但，目前为此…还是没有……读书先吧……)-雨银
（1步是我。。999 是他吧^^ )
　　
　　第二句
　　
　　通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
　　
　　才是真正爱你的人

( true.....争吵也是增进感情的方法吧..)
　　
　　第三句
　　
　　付出真心　才会得到真心
　　
　　却也可能伤得彻底
　　
　　保持距离　就能保护自己
　　
　　却也注定永远寂寞

(好悲观哦。。。可是适当的与某一些不愿意与你分享的人保持距离也是自我保护的方法）

　　第四句
　　
　　有时候　不是对方不在乎你
　　
　　而是你把对方看得太重

（朋友也好。。情人也好。。当一方看得太重时。。 自然就会发生咯。。但不明显的在乎并不代表不重视 ：p)

　　
　　第五句
　　
　　朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人

(我有这样的朋友吗？谁看透了我？又懂得多少？)-雨银
（朋友看透程度不必达到100%， 但。。某程度上也有一定的认识吧。。至少也了解你的优缺点……）
　　
　　第六句
　　
　　就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie

(我依然选择相信，这世界上有纯真的友谊……)-yuying
(好矛盾哦。。哈哈。。害怕受伤害所以对友谊有所保留但。。心中仍相信纯友谊^^反而是我。。认同这一句。。）
　　
　　第七句
　　
　　真正的好朋友
　　
　　并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
　　
　　而是在一起　就算不说话
　　
　　也不会感到尴尬

(nobody came across my mind……sob sob...)-雨盈
（很庆幸。。我有一群。。不知他们有没有同感。。。 但我是觉得真的不会感到尴尬^^他们当然是我的3musketeers..茹盈（虽然有时也会觉得冷冷酱。。哈哈）。。凯欣吧。。wb（认识太久了）..兄弟-weilun..慧苓。。雨盈(有时咯。。怎么she say don hav叻）。。燕芳。。欣宜。。还有最重要的他。。oops..姐姐算是朋友吗？？哈哈）

　　第八句
　　
　　没有一百分的另一半
　　
　　只有五十分的两个人

（认同。。^^)
　　
　　第九句
　　
　　为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
　　
　　为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
　　
　　为你的难过而难过的
　　
　　就是那些　该放进心里的人

(有吗？邪教吗？不晓得~)-yuyeng..
(深奥^^)
　　
　　第十句
　　
　　冷漠　有时候并不是无情
　　
　　只是一种避免被伤害的工具

(有时，并不是我想用言语伤害大家，只是……我想，这是我另一种除了戴着面具，保护自己的方式吧……)-雨盈
(我只对我不喜欢的人冷漠吧。。避免自己伤害别人,让自己多了敌人。。）

no mood

not in any mood now..
really don und how all ppl study in hostel...
d moment i'm bac i can sense d stuffed n stressy feeling in here...
i guess WB is so totally rite..haiz...
hate d atmosphere in here...
stupid JKP...
looking at those uncomplete files..i hav nth to say...
argh...really feeling down..can i cry??
deep in my heart noe its useless..so suan le ba..
haiz...looking at my untouch law for d past few days at home..
feel like killing myself onli...sienz....
so..in conclusion..my condition now is nth better than loke too...
but look good at the outside har..=.='''

random n mixed up...

promised myself...
never ever do secretary job for my entire uni life..
its the most frustrating job on earth..even though the reward is good..
the job sucks like shit...
especially with no one helping..u feel like strangling those who is supposedly to..
n kesian my frens listening to my grumbles EVERY DAY -.-'''
i also lazy to grumble d...
hope d hostel files can be handed up fast to the freaky so called princess lady...

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another thing...
lesson learnt throughout my 1st yr..
1st sem...
>> never ever do last mins studies on boring subjects like TAMADUN grand nanny stories..

2nd sem
>> do notes urself....
by writing notes urself...u will learnt faster...
or u will b regretting to d top of ur heart like us now 0.o

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got d link from luying's pg ^^
wow...67 more yrs..seems so near leh...
really need to appreciate my days on earth..
LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST !!!

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go have fun der :P
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Photo Tagging...

Hey viv...surprisingly i got d time to do this... ^^

Pictures of you at the most unique environment

its unique coz me myself dunno where izzit..hehe..i noe its sumwhere near d casino

This picture is indeed UGLY>>> n it is taken in d guys toilet...omg... >.<

taken at 5th..............PARKING LOT>..<>

well this is sumwhere near KL sentral..consider middle of the road...

wonder y we took picx der anyway ^^

ALAMANDA PUTRAJaya..d place i appeal for matriculatation...

won't be going der for d moment ba..its like so deserted...der is nth to see everywhere :P

this is indeed unique...haha..how many of u hav ur picx posted up in the lecture hall wallpaper ^^

thx to CS dey all...lol

Pictures of you at the place you dislike.

i hate waiting d bus here..

dreading long...n HOT...:P

Pictures of People Who Mean A lot to You

My Family of course!!!

Dearest ..yu sharky

Its my 18th birthday...they created the scariest BD i ever had...thx guys..lol

Suang n ah Loke...

my most charming fren i ever noe...AILI!!!

luying's family...crapping group

XIE JIAO LIVE forever!!

Kikilala entp/3musketeers/abu n ali..watever it is...3 of us will remain together as a groupie 4ever ^^

ooookay........WB a long long long ago pal of mine..HL d one who shares everything with me...

d 5M gang i treasure the most!!!

Dolphin@yuen fong...

xiao za bo@xiao hai zi...

d one who shares d same thinking with me in 3rd coll..lol..mayb we r from matriks..

lazy together,skip class sumtimes 2gtr..,rush laz min work 2gtr..haiz..but she won't b staying coll...hopefully life is still the same during 2nd yr ^^

EMily ..孩子的妈。。。

wat would i be without ur help in getting me keep up wif my class n coursework schedule...

haiz...2nd yr is moving out wif d CSY also..so cham la me...nobody gonna teman me go lepak at nite d lar...^^

brother..wei lun...LIBRA RAWKS!!!!

Pictures of You With Your Best Smile (Mouth Opened)

hehe...love this picx..coz i look so "si wen" lar..lol

Picture of You With Your Best Smile (Mouth Closed)

i rarely smile while taking pics :P

Pictures of you with the lamest pose

these are lame..n these 3 is juz part of it..lol..at least i got her teman me to be lame.. ^^

at sam's room...playing wif the mask wif suang n sam ^^

this is funny n lame...

wonder wat pose is this :P

this picx reminds me of CS's beloved Mr. Liew@Xie jiao's enemy ^^

coz he is d one who ask us take tis pic :P

looking stupid wif Aisyah^^kinda miss her craps sumtimes...another LIbra..

We libras thinks alike^.^

A Picture of Someone Who Stands On Top of Your Heart

On top of my heart...

I can't pick A PICTURE>>>

so...i will leave this space out ^^

Pictures of You With Some Toys or Cute Stuff

her name is BABY...

cutie pooh bear..

Pictures of You in a White Shirt

I m also wondering..y must it be white 0.o

10 people i tag :

- copying babe (sure kena 1 lar u ^^)
- Luying lor..
- khai yaan
- karying
- +2
- huiling..hehe..if u r free pls do it..wanna c ur picx
- Viv yap
-waiboon...
- jess
- ooo..wei jie...